The Start of Eternity/die-eerie

UNDER CONSTRUCTION
See User blog:JWSchmidt/Dear die-eerie,

Day 1
Note to self: how do I know that I have lost memories? I seem to have memories of other memories, or, the feeling that I have forgotten something important. I'm particularly puzzled by my antagonism towards Doltun and my sense of unease whenever I see Orbho Anagro.

What is going on?

Day 2
Yesterday I only had time to start this with a few brief notes and I am going to be busy for the foreseeable future. I am meeting regularly with Vicktir Klempse and I've met another scientist, Wints. I think I have a basic understanding of what they mean by "science". They have a huge amount of history behind their little "research station" and I've been looking though their records in my "spare" time. I'm reminded of the exciting days when I first had access to the Observer data base. Most importantly, when I mentioned my memory problem to Klempse he told me that the entire scientific research station was founded by people who reported similar problem. My first night with access to the history of these scientists, I tried to find the personal records of the founders, but I have failed. Today Klempse told me that the history files have been censored and that there is only an oral history. Huge sense of relief knowing that I am not alone, not simply going crazy.

Day 4
No time with Klempse today, so I will take the time to try to order my thoughts and lay everything out here. If I decide to go through with downloading my mind into Klempse's machine then I want to have a written record of myself to pass on to whatever comes next. I guess there will be an artificial life form, a computerized device that will hold fragments of my mind. I've seen the positronic robot called "Nahan" and it does not seem to have a mind. Is there any reason for me to hope that my mind can live on?